Monday, May 31, 2010

Something personal

Life is an interesting journey !!

Nobody is perfect in homo-sapiens,,only species which can express its emotions and thought process through words which makes sense only to that species alone.


Today personally learnt very important lesson in my life.Sometimes you learn it through unexpected incident and in an unconventional way though.

It made me realize ,how I have become stuck up in very own small world ,make imaginary castle for myself and living in it ,,or its like forgotten my old ways which made to reach to the present place of mind and state ,,,,

Are my goals getting detahced or am getting more detahced emtionally ? Other than ? my passion and my work what else do I have ? am i not happy with my present state ? why i am not selfish about my self other than my work ? and how long this can happen?

ya true i will be student all my life learning new things about the universe and about myself.

Good or bad right or wrong I got to be myself at anycost !! As long that internal happiness is there things will follow soon .World is never going to be rosy bed though and theres no point in running away from unexpected events (thats qunatum mechanical system) which can have multiple solutions .the probability of each solution depends on the outcome of the event occurrence that what maths tells and that was life has been teaching me and will teach me till i kick the bucket.

Still kiddish in most of my actions which are spontaneous meaning probabilistic system?

Hey why not a thesis on how emotional volcano like me homo sapiens rabinder henry can be modelled as a system? fantastic topic thats where cognitive science starts .Wish to start it in sometime very soon !!Now back to oldways got to read some technical stuff to make things clearer been long time since i sat with some techno books !!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Why this paradox?

India is on the brink of change and its been changing on through the years since independence.But off late the things happening like

Unrest in Manipur
Dantawade Naxal Attacks
Sports damaka interms of IPL etc
Unrest in the society
Hypocrisy in the society on the rise
Attitude of the younger generation

One doesn't feel confidence about the future .Sometimes how this chaos called India works.Why is there so much divide in terms of money and opportunities while the country boasts about its short term achievements.

Why is money more valued and then human value in the society.?

Being a professor and researcher sometimes I wonder why not we Indians think with some common sense.

We are so much in talking about ourselves.but on the ground the reality is different.China is booming like anything see their infrastructure they have started creating things instead of copying things from west.

now they are turning all stones unturned to take the technology and benefit to all in the society .

Why not in India ?

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Am simple and broadminded.Though am born as a christian i don't follow any religion as such. Had spent some time in Europe for my post graduation, later i choose to do research and teaching in India which am very passionate about. My colleagues say my character resembles Howard Roark of Fountainhead. Am free spirited but morally grounded extremely focused, doing things which make me and others happy. Life is to be lived without compromising any of your principles.I enjoy building things ,am workaholic,am very intense and live in my own small world ,, different people have different things to say about me but am not the typical kind of person,, eccentric for some , but above all am always myself.Researching,creating ,pumping out ideas  and teaching are my hobbies.Do read when i get bored, love all kinds of music,but prefer something of a fusion or alternative kind,would love to write my ideas as book ,,very passionate about my country,,everything in my life has been around doing that very thing for a country. but i cant stand where India is heading today?!!!